Lost it in the ribbon aisle.

I want to make a mini quilt to place Jack's ashes on. While at Jo Ann's I was looking for trimming in the ribbon aisle. Seeing the patterned ribbons with "it's a boy"  and baseballs and monkeys printed on it. I lost it. Would he have played baseball like his dad? Liked monkeys like his big sister? I'll never know. He never had the chance to show us. My heart is breaking all over again.  Oh, and I could t bring myself to buy fabric either. Another day. One day at a time.